I Quit.....

Ok this doesn't have anything to do with a diet or eating for that matter. Yesterday at 4 o'clock pm...Rick and I had our last cigarette. I guess I didn't realize some of the side effects to quitting smoking?! I knew the whole...get irritated easily....but the "sick to my stomach feeling" ? I was taking Rick to work this morning and I almost felt like I was drunk in a way. I chalked that up to....more air is getting to my brain now so I feel almost light headed. I can't explain getting sick to my stomach....and I guess it doesn't really matter. When I woke this morning...before my feet touched the floor I prayed that Jesus would please help me thru the day and help me keep calm. I got faith and I know I am going to be just fine and so is Rick.

All in all.... I got a lot of energy right now. I will use that to my advantage! ;)

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yea...blah blah blah....just jackin my jaw... LOL

I haven't been doin really good...ok fact is I haven't been doin good....ok ok ok I haven't been doin at all to be perfectly honest. =)

Sometimes life gets in the way of life...if you know what I mean. And right now I have a lot of things going on...and haven't taken the time to concentrate on healthy eating.

My goal this week is to...get back to the healthy eating again, because I felt soooo much healthier and so much more energy. I miss that feeling, and that alone, if for nothing else, is reason enough to jump back on the wagon.

Good luck to everyone else...and keep your head up!

So Anit-Diet Pill

Ok well today is what?....5 weeks?
I got weighed this morning...I gained 4 pounds! =( I am dead set again diet aids right now. But I guess that's what happens when you aid your body with pills...I think your body becomes dependant on them and the minute you go off them BAM..the weight you lost finds you again. Not to mention the tanning bed experiences I have had with these pills. I have never in 19 years burnt from a tanning bed. With the Alli pills in my system I fried myself and got little red welts/bumps all over that were extremely painful and itchy.

I have so much respect for Weight Watchers now it's unbelieveable! I should have known....if it isn't broke ...don't fix it. Weight Watchers has worked for me in the past, so why I tried to jump start the whole weight loss thing with "diet pills" is beyond me! I guess it was greed. Either way I and my body have learned a valueable lesson....a 100$ lesson to be exact!

I vow to never put the body God gave me to take care of through that again. I will continue to watch what I eat and exercise daily. Other than that....If the weight don't come off....at least I know I am doing my best and using good knowledge to try.

Good Luck to everyone today and have a Great Day!!!! =)

A walk it was...

We decided on a walk at the Dam. It is a little warmer today however, the wind they said would be gone....isn't!! It was a good time though...just Faith and me bonding. And now I will finish all this off with an aleeve for the ear aches =(

Ok...Now What

I am borderline depressed right now. Why you ask...after losing 21 pounds?? Depressed??? Yea...depressed...maybe I just want more for myself..Maybe I am setting my goals too high too fast. Maybe it's just time for my mind to rest for a moment and just take things in. Kinda relax a little bit. I am at a standstill with the weight. I know these things happen but c'mon already!


Ok...Ok...Fine...I'll sit and relax my mind....just not my legs!! I AM going for a walk or to the Y today and I am not settling for anything less of myself! =)

If anyone has any suggestions...please offer it up! lol

Have a stress and fat free day!

4 weeks...

Today it's been 4 weeks since I started my diet. Again, so far it's still 21pounds. I found out the difference between Weight Watchers and Alli diet plans. Since I found out the difference I have decided to go back on the weight watchers plan. So far today I have stuck with it. I didn't go to the Y or for a walk today, however I started in my bedroom. I took down a 6-7 foot tall bookshelf. Empting all the books and pulled it to the dining room. Loaded all the books back on it. In the bedroom I took apart my bed...frame and matresses and pulled them to the dining room. I proceeded to clean my room and started moving my bed back in. I did manage to get it all put back together and everything is done. I'm thinkin....enough exercise for today! =)

Have a great day everyone!

@ the Y before 8 am????

At 7:45 this morning I was checking in at the Y for a workout with my oldest daughter Amanda. Me at the Y anytime....let alone that early...was so not the old Gwen. If someone would have asked me to go to the Y that early I would have replied with "i'm not home right now but leave your name and number at the sound of the beep"!!!

I am really enjoying this new me...and all the stuff I am learning. What is odd to me though is....It really doesn't take a rocket scientist to learn the "lose weight math class 101". It's all figuring out the calories, fat grams, points, carbs, protien, fiber, high fructose corn syrup, etc. Ok...it is a lil' overwhelming but it'll be ok. Change one thing at a time. Always remember, ONE DAY AT A TIME...ONE STEP AT A TIME....literally! =)